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so i pretty much love this,
just saying ...
id be fine if it stayed like this forever
but i would like it if you texted me first once in a while hokay?

:)

future

i want him to say "baby girl ill take care of you",

i want him to embrace me in his lanky arms,

i want him to be mine...
for a long long time <3

pictures framing up the past
your taunting smirk behind the glass
this museum full of ash
once a tickle, now a rash

freud

i was thinking about jamaica mon and after our evening at wyndham provincial park i got thinking how i want this to go down...

i dont want a boyfriend when my wall gets back, and i dont want one for my 18th
i want a date for grad but not a bf and my friends have to like him.

after reading my past posts a realized that all the boys i have liked or thought about since january do not meet any of my necessary qualifications or ended up not in my life anymore.

i enjoyed reading my january post again....made me realize what i really want (to be free)

:)

i love life, the single life
i shall continue to live my relationships through vampire movies and tv shows

well...

she said that if i dont receive a text by tuesday i should text him...

but i dunno

i keep thinking about "he's just not that into you", and how if he wants to make it work, he'll make it work...

but then again i dunno

im not good at this boy thing

well...

first it was friday...

got changed to saturday...

which then got changed to sunday...

which did happen, however another slight issue...

which one??

monday monday

friday could not come soon enough,
i want you to be here...SOON
i want you to add me on fcbk and ask for my # PLEASE

i dont want this to not turn out...

you can be my paulo, my mbf, my gerard HOKAY?

even though you dont agree with me on soft drinks...

HURRY FRIDAY HURRY

happy new years

this is a feeling that has been dormant for almost a year
..im pretty stoked

I still squint my eyes hoping to see someone at the end of the road.

just leave

you bruised me;

you wounded me;

this left all the scars;

which turned to scabs,

they keep getting picked

...they wont heal, and go away

nor will you

i dont know what else i have to do

unfortuneatly the next step will have to be durastic.

but how far is too far?

guess we will find out...

sigh

i dont even know what to think.
we call this life?
why are our lives run by the moving
hands of a man?
why did god create sunsets?
sunrises?
why do we go from being cold and isolated
to sweaty and social?
why do i have to know how to calculate molar
mass of an unknown substance?
why do i have to know about Bill 101? and how people felt about
what our official language should be?
why do i have to kno that there isnt a fossil for every species
that walked the earth before me?
why do we suffer?
why is such a thing made?
why do guys prefer girls that have been 'passed' around, one too
many times?
why does chocolate make me feel better?
as do sappy movies?
how come the moon affects all we do?
our menstrual cycles, mood, and amount of
time awake?

i just dont understand
and i dont know what to think

vavavoom

you is hawt.

you may keep in touch.

the end

boiz will be boiz will be boiz will be boiz will be boiz

1. I don't know what to do with you. I like you but I'm not allowed to like you in that way, that would be suicide. But I do think that we should become really really really really good friends, cause I want you to be the brother I never had.

2. You are pretty chill, have bad breath but chill. I like how I'm not texting you first all the time. I think that you ar emore of a cousin then a brother, but I wouldn't mind us being really good friends either. My own personal wall.

3. You pissed me off. I still think about you alot, which also pisses me off. I think that (unfortuneatly) if you did by some random reason wanna speak to me again I would talk back. I really shouldn't cause then all these hopes of us dating would come back, and I can't date someone whose nickname is 'douche', 'faggot' or 'pussy'.

4. I thought that we may have had something till you blew me off and called me dumb. If you apologized and started talking to me again, lost your man whoreish ways then maybe just maybe you would get another chance.

5. I really really liked you on first impression, but your taken..boo.

6. I wanna get to know you, I don't know if we would have something, but I think you're cute...and that wouldn't look so bad next to me.

ho hum

a little stressed,
but it think its a good stress.

its about the right things,
its about time i buckled down,
got serious,
and worked hard.

the time has come.
lets do things right this time around

in a nut shell...a peanut shell

so basically...
I have been thinking about you a lot,
and before i go on don't get me wrong i am
content with my life as is but...
im just wondering if possibly,
you are thinking about me too

i just hope that i meet you some day soon,
and i hope it's beautiful

the end :)